I had my first formal interviews with London today. Initiating a transfer in a company is sort of like cheating on your boyfriend with his best friend. You don't want to leave your current one until you're pretty certain the next one is going to be better, somehow, because everyone is going to know. There's a mild flirtation at first, where you're both sizing each other up. Is this worth talking to my boss about? I wonder. If I do, and I'm wrong, things will never be the same between us again.

So I wait, and flirt, and he flirts back and wracked with guilt, I finally tell my boss. That's okay, she says, between clenched teeth. I hope you both will be very happy together. She shoots eye darts at me, and I know if this transfer doesn't happen, she will punish me for this. The thing is about me and London, we haven't even been together. Not exactly.

And now I've had my interviews, two hours of them, and I sort of feel like I've just slept with this guy but still don't know if this is what I really want. What I really want, I think, is to spend the next year traveling through Asia, not working at yet another job in what can only be considered a ridiculous career choice. And yet I can't stop myself from wondering obsessively, is he going to call? I mean, he may not be perfect, but he is pretty cute.